the sun also rises.

I’ve always suffered from sleep paralysis and horrible nightmares.  The sleep paralysis seems to be a pretty common sleep disorder, and coupled with the vivid imagination, i suppose that’s what trigged my nightmares.  Otherwise I had a pretty happy childhood.

Anyway I have a pretty vivid memory of being in my crib and having some sort of nightmare/episode.  I saw the mobile above me and as it turned it morphed into horrific demonic faces.  I remember screaming and crying until one of my parents came to fetch me.  What is weird about this is that the crib I remember is not in any photograph that exists of me, and when I describe it to my parents including the overall location of it in the room, they agree that its accurate.

The sleep paralysis is not something I remember as part of that particular memory, but every other memory that sticks out has to do with waking up and not being able to move.  I thought it was a recurring nightmare until my early twenties when I heard about the condition.

The only other memory from my childhood was being at a sitters house, I may have been 3 or 4, and running down the hall to meet my mom and bonking my head after tripping. I remember what the apartment looked like and I also remember the sitter trying to hide my pacifier.